Hello family!
This
week was great! In response to some of your inquiries: next week we
will not have normal church in Arizona because of the Dedication. We
will watch the broadcast in the Stake Center. Since you have to have a
temple recommend to go to church we can't invite any investigators. Que
raro! I am really excited though to hear from a general authority, see
all the white clothes, and celebrate the work of salvation moving in the
valley. People here are SUPER excited. It really makes one (one from
Utah) think of the conveniences we have. I remember hearing sometime at
home that the real challenge for us is making sacrifices in our time
schedules. It sounds like you are all doing that already. Bien hecho! I
have the goal to go once a week FOREVER, unless on vacation. It was
stake conference yesterday and the stake president talked about the Top 5
things the General authorities are focusing on right now: retention and
activation, temple work, family history, missionary work, and teaching
in the church. It made me try to think about what the Church has focused
on through its history. I wonder what it would've been? Now the focuses
are obvious and we can see all the why. The Church is REALLY hitting
these things hard. I feel like I just started noticing it when I came
out here. The church just makes so much sense and there is a lot of work
to do! So it is fun to learn a little about how to do this stuff while I
am out here.
My
Birthday was great. In fact, It was like 9:40 that night and I was
thinking to myself: ...There's no way it ends like this. I know my
parents have something up their sleeves. I bet it is Jim or
something.... It was funny because moments later there was a knock and I
just knew. Jim was so great! I love seeing him. I showed him the bike
he gave me (which I taped up), the apartment, the roommates, and his
phone number that he wrote down for me 12 months ago. I also had the
chance to give him a picture of Christ to take home! He seemed to enjoy
it. Elder Ramos and I bought ourselves more Frozen Custards to
celebrate. Other than that, it was pretty normal. Some friends from the
zone called to wish happy birthday, sister taylor texted us on behalf of
Elder Pollmeier which was nice! Not much else. Surprisingly normal. And
even more surprising; I didn't mind at all. I know this sounds cliche
but it really was a well-spent birthday being out and serving The Lord. I
like to forget about myself as much as possible so I can know my time
out here is well spent on other people. That was my only full-year so
far in complete service to The Lord and, in retrospect, I don't have any
regrets, I had a really fun time, and I think I have grown a lot.
Seeing growth is hard for me to see in myself but I am looking at the
mission to be an enabling event in my life for the rest of my life. I
cannot expect to Become out here in the field. It will start me to what I
can become in the rest of my life.
This
week was kind of tough because there wasn't a whole lot of action with
investigators. We visited a lot of members, those who are currently
participating and those who are not. I found myself getting frustrated
and impatient (not necessarily with not visiting investigators, but with
things in general). I have been blessed with a very patient and loving
companion and I learned some things this week that are a great help. The
#1 way in which my mission is helping me is it is helping me to
understand the Atonement better; how to apply it, experiencing a sliver
of what Christ must've felt/feels, and what the Atonement can do if we
allow it to help. I read a talk from Elder Bednar about the
strengthening and enabling power. This goes so much farther than
repenting. There are things that we can ONLY do with the power of the
Atonement. And for the most part, we can only get the Atonement to help
if we ask for it. I am having a hard time loving people down here. I
honestly thought I would have this done in 3 or 4 months out in Arizona
but I am still fighting for it here at month 12. I love a lot of people
down here, but it is kind of selective love. I am trying so hard but I
know that only the power of the Atonement can bring this real, sincere
love and desire to serve these people. That is what I decided to do this
week. I have even tried to put Christ in my shoes and see what he would
do to serve this people. I think if we all imagined the SAvior teaching
a lesson to someone then we would probably realize how different the
lesson would be. This is helping me draw closer to the Savior for sure.
As far as developing more love for this people; every person I come in
contact with, I will exercise patience in figuring out how I get to that
point. I am working hard for a love for this people.
Zone
Conferences were a blast! I love missionary meetings. We were out in
hickland (Buckeye). I spent a lot of time with Elder Dodd which was fun!
He is doing great and it is hard to believe that he is at the point
where I was when we became companions. Time is flying. Aren't there 2
weeks until transfers!? Crazy; however nothing will happen to us two. We
will have a solid 12 weeks together. The meeting was awesome. They sang
to me and some other missionaries at lunch. I got to see Elder Linkogle
after his accident. He is fine! We learned great stuff. I liked
President's thoughts on being a consecrated missionary. I thought about
sacrifice and the role that needs to play in our life. Sacrifice needs
to be everything. We need to put it all on the altar. Our fears even.
What are we willing to give up or do for this to happen, or for that to
happen. Then when we pray at nights we should remember that our prayers
aren't to change the will of God (even if we have sacrificed everything
for something honorable and righteous and may feel the right to push God
into helping us with something that we deserve) but to put our will in
line with His.
I
am working hard and still fighting out here! Elder Ramos told me in the
middle of Personal study yesterday morning that he had repeatedly felt
inspired to tell me he loves me. May sound kind of cheesy, but it was
nice! He is good for me. I told President at Conferences that I am
learning more than he (Elder Ramos) is, and he said, "that's what he
said, that's what Elder Pollmeier said, that's what they all say!"